NaNoWriMo – Day 10
Day 10 and I’m on target with my Nano manuscript. I’m not allowing myself ANY edits not even spellchecks however, so I can tell you it’s a complete dog’s breakfast. Sometimes I write a paragraph and then just keep writing it over and over again till I feel like it’s written the way it should be. Sometimes it’s more like I’m writing out the plot than writing in actual prose. Still, you know what? I’m delighted about it. I’m thrilled. This is the most writing I have done in my entire life and even if I have to delete nearly all of it, I love what I’m learning, I love some of the ideas I have come up with and it’s been such a rewarding experience.
The WALL is fast approaching though, I can feel it . I woke up this morning and the very LAST thing I want to do today is think about my manuscript or write 1667 words. I know if I don’t though, the next day I have to write 3334 to keep going. Momentum – it’s all about keeping it up and trying your hardest not to fall behind. Sometimes it’s not about FEELING like it, you just have to do it anyway just to get it done. You grit your teeth, you put you bum in the chair and write – because that’s what you HAVE to do.
I know how terrible that sounds but I think that’s our biggest problem. We’re too precious about our art and things like writing. It’s all about ‘inspiration’ and ‘motivation’ and ‘feelings’. Well the BIGGEST lesson I have learned is this is utter rubbish. Yes it is about that to a certain degree right at the beginning – but after that, it’s just like everything else, exercising, building a house, fixing the car, doing the dishes. Sometimes you really don’t want to do it, sometimes you might even hate it. But if at the end of the day you want the results, you have to roll up your sleeves and forget all the reason why you don’t want to do it – and just DO it.
I stood in my own way for thirty-seven years because I was afraid (no, I was terrified, really terrified) to fail, books and writing meant so much to me. So I avoided it, by never really trying. I was comfortable living with the ‘idea’ and the ‘dream’ of writing a book. That didn’t work out so well, it got less and less comfortable as the years past. Finally, as Anais Nin says, “And the day came when the risk to remain tight in a bud was more painful than the risk it took to blossom.”
Time to blossom Dragon Writers. Let’s do it together. 😀